it's sunny out there

I want to say I'm fine.
I need to say I'm fine.
That there is beauty in faults, in failure, in this broken version of myself
That I can accept it as part of me
That the summer is almost here and I should feel grateful for being here
               But...
It does not change the numbness of the past twenty eight hours.
Life is out there and I have to face it as it is
Mierda.